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This year passed so… well, not necessarily “quickly,” but it’s like, “Wow… 2014 is almost over.” I’m kind of glad because this year held a lot of painful moments for myself and for many people, but it also let me learn many many things. I’m grateful for the wisdom I attained. I could’ve done without 75% of the mental pain though. haha.

I do believe each year can give off a certain kind of “feel” to it (ex. the year I found myself, the year I learned who to stay away from, the year I moved in with a dragon, etc.). However, I don’t like saying “I can’t wait for the next year because this year is so bad,” because I don’t feel it’s necessarily the year that’s making things bad. Yeah, sometimes you get a crappy year, but I don’t think it’s always the year itself. Um… How do I say this properly…

What I’m trying to say is… Let’s say we’re in August (wooo time hop) and August is going bad for you, so then you say, “Ugh, I can’t wait for September,” but then what if something goes wrong in September? Now you’re saying, “Ugh, I can’t wait for October.” Now you’re kind of wishing for the next moth and the next month and eventually the next year to come. A new month or a new year won’t bring happiness.  Waiting to start anew in a new year won’t make things better. You don’t have to wait for the next month or year to come to bring positive energy and love into your life. (Love for yourself and what you do; not necessarily people)

Want to change something? Start right now and if not now, tomorrow. Starting on the first day of a month or year may seem the most aesthetic for when you keep track of days or tell others about it, but sometimes that delay means you never get to it. I do this all the time. That’s why when I want to start something, I start right away. I can gladly say that this is something I’ve achieved this year. I may not have posted every day or studied as hard as I could or learned a new recipe every week or publicly posted written works, but I did other things.

I found lovely friends online, learned how close to let certain people be, how to not care so much about other’s opinions, finished a couple of textbooks (MIRACLE BLESS), made some good attempts to use Korean on twitter to talk to BAP and fellow fans in Korean and Japanese (you learn SO much this way omg), saw how badly college affected me, and a couple of other things.

So instead of what you’re planning for 2015, what have you done in 2014 that you’re proud of? I think that’s a better thought to end the year on. :)

Also, thank you to all the people who followed this blog this year despite how inactive I am. ;-; I wanna be much more entertaining and helpful to you all.  You guys are the best!